one helluva day

Found written on a half-torn page of a dilapidated but still miraculously surviving notebook in Treasury Dept., SM Pampanga:

04 / 25 / 06
19 : 16 : 58

JM YAMBAO,
COUNTER UTILITY CLERK,
IS NOW
OFFICIALLY
SIGNING OFF.
THANKS BUNCH.



Yep, yesterday was my last day working in the freaking mall. It wasn’t what I’d call a happy carefree-‘cause-tonight-I-can-sleep-‘til-dawn teary-eyed-goodbye-to-y’all-dicks-and-janes sort of day. I kinda lost the heat(?) of the moment because of a slight strike cold. I was feeling so shitty tired since morning I was surprised I made it through the day without fainting or puking. My head hurt like the hell of hells; I kept thinking “cold and clammy” whenever I looked at my hands which were – after all – cold and clammy. Talk about stating the obvious. I didn’t check up with the mall nurse because she would surely have made me go home the instant she took my toasting temperature. This, alas, meant no medicine for me the whole fuckin’ long day. What was so important I didn’t want to leave work early? Well there were these new recruits for SM Clark that we, no, I(since Kong Dave had his off) had to train for the day. Being it was my last day AND being the good employee that I was(ya*&^%$#skunk!), I did the most rightful thing of doing the gravest of grave life-threatening sacrifice for the sake of a flawless income-generating company operation. Fuck it, I expect a lot in my back pay, you lousy assholes, I didn’t ignore medication for a horrible headache that split my head in two whenever I coughed for nothing!

It wasn’t a total crap of a day though. I got to have a short unassuming talk with my crush, even had the luck to get a friendster account(I don’t sound too childishly girly, do I?.. ok I do); saw Bryan, who had the ultimate courage to give up the work for apparently the same reasons I would have, again(------you humungous bastard, I definitely am gonna miss you------); the picture taking session at treas. was fun, although I realized after that that I shoulda brought the sweet little camera the day before since everybody(Kong Dave, Kong Marv, Buley) would’ve been present, I also missed to get pictures of Yen, Bryan and ma supervisors(yea, im a total suck up),,, what waste.

Although there was little to be grand about, I can’t say I didn’t enjoy the day. Every person I passed by piped “last day”. God, I didn’t know I knew that much people in the store. I did get to say goodbye to everyone, I think…

Turning point:::
Lyka, a good friend, once pointed out that it wasn’t about the work, or the salary, or whatever things SM offers you that kind of make you never want to leave the circle. It’s the people that you have been accustomed to seeing and hanging out with. Friends is the better term. You won’t be able to help it; these people just grow on you in ways expected and surprising alike. You would definitely want to quit the job, but you just can’t quit the friends, can ya??

That’s about it… Ciao. I’m gonna miss all of ya guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(i wrote this last april 26, 2006. i only got to publish it now because of the said cold i caught which alas lasted for a week. ainnit terrible?)

whoa! am back!

for good..? who knows...
only few more days and it'll be or, let me rephrase, would've been a full year since the last time i posted here. how unthinkable. illogical. cruel. mad. really, why haven't i been doing this stuff for too long a time??? well, it's practically pointless to say i've been busy because i've had what, like, six months vacation from everything that concerned school, church(?), work(??), outings, late night activities of a normal college pupil, etc. basically MY SOCIAL FUCKIN LIFE. yeah yeah i know.
enough ranting.

after living a bum's life, i, nah you're not imagining things, started work in SM Pampanga's dept. store. it was more out of reducing the boredom i was going through and would still have been going through for the next half-year or so if i didn't do anything useful at that point of my life that i decided to actually hit the mall and apply for a job. it was only after that that i kinda liked having a regular income to boast about heehee. sino nga ba naman ang di mukhang pera sa mga panahon ngayon?? (quoted from the coolest supervisor in the treasusr dept. :p)

right now, i am living my last week of being a CUC. my job, idiots. what's a CUC? good question. it's the most stupidly easy, leg-exhausting, respiratorily unhealthy, sculiosis-inducing work a person could have here on the planet. well except maybe for those people who dive into 'poso negroes' and stuff(everybody say 'ew'). i'm not exaggerating mind ya. i wouldn't suggest it to you if you were asthmatic or sculiotic or too intelligent(well in your case, you'd probably figure that out without ma help at all). i'd like to say all the walking and sprinting and half-running shaped my legs up nicely but nah they didn't. i still look the skinny bastard i was months ago - if not skinnier.

apart from the money though, the only thing that will probably stick with me when i get out of this mess are the people that i got to interact, make friends, and curse the superiors with. kidding. six months in a workplace such as a mall can show you a lot of things that you will most likely never learn anywhere else. i met workaholics, clowns, plastics, lazy asses, two-timers, personalities(well, i didn't actually meet them hehe), bitches and assholes, good friends, fake friends, friends for the time being, lots of good looking people(!!), some not so good looking people, nice people, wealthy people, regular people, and regular customers. these people, whether they left a good mark or a bad spot on me, will be remembered no matter what. i may lose connection to each one of them, which usually does in my case alas, but memories stay.

on a happier note, i will be off to college again this june. suck on that, my alter ego! i'm back again, so see ya all.

ako..sa mga kilala ko at sa mga hindi

this came from krizelle's mail, what do you think?

Cedar Tree (Confidence)

Of rare strength,
knows how to adapt,
likes unexpected presents,
of good health,
not in the least shy,
tends to look down on others,
self-confident,
a great speaker,
determined,
often impatient,
likes to impress others,
has many talents,
industrious,
healthy optimism,
waits for the one true love,
able to make quick decisions.

ehem sana nga lang totoo lahat

to masyadong seryoso ang mga pinagsasabi sa taas, and very impersonal if u ask me so dagdagan naten:
ME
mahiyain ako, pero not all the time. pag sobrang kilala nyo nako never nyo na maaalala na ganun ako nung first tayo mgmeet. tahimik din ako, pero depende sa kasama ko, sa sitwasyon and of course my emo..i kinda like letting my mind wander, and most of the time people notice (isa na dun si kristel!) me smiling alone while brooding, and they would laugh - un! un ang talent ko, i can make people laugh just by smiling! san k p? actually, tumatawa lang daw sila dahil i smile with no apparent reason i look like an idiot to them..pero im not offended, call me abnoy pero i like having people laughing, even in the danger na they are actually laughing at me pala. GANUN AKO KABAIT! wehe, that's nother 1 of my traits, madalas akong magjoke kung gano ako kabait, kacute, habulin(nakana!), etc. kupal din kasi ako minsan. all the same, i intend those as exaggerations. im not giving undue credit to myself; im actually sort of the opposite of that sometimes.
FACTUAL OVERVIEW
im practical, but not overly so. un tipong jeep ako normally pero pag sobrang init fx. i dont like the sun very much. im more of an indoor person, less in sports, more on reading and writing and eating and lying in bed at an average of 12 hrs/day hehe. i like movies, especially pag meh pera ako..wehe.. gusto ko rin ang kumakanta khit d ako mahusay dun, kya i like alot of bands and singers. i think meron nang diperensaya pandinig ko sa kakatapat ng ulo ko sa speakers ng radyo para sumabay lang kumanta sa tugtog hihi.
ON FRIENDS
i like making friends, pero u cant trust me to initiate it(dahil nga mahiyain), so lapit lang ang meh gusto dahel im welcome naman to it. tapos kapag nagkasalubong tayo at hindi kta pinansin, hindi un dahil intention kong mang-snob, i dont know pero i have a hard time noticing people kahit nanjan lang sila malapit s kin. tangina hirap naman i explain. pero dun sa mga matagal na kong kilala, im sure nangyari na satin un..so i apologize, at dun sa mga susunod pa, i apologize beforehand. pag minsan bigla na lang akong nagfafade o nawawala sa sirkulasyon. there are times na you wont hear from me for a span of time. and then suddenly one day, im back na parang kahapon lang tayo nagkita.. alam ko ang pangit ng trait kong un, and its very hard to justify, pero its part who i am e, it may be weird to you but there are people who prefer being alone -- ganon ako pag sinusumpong. para s kin naman kasi, once friends, always friends. distance and time are aspects of friendship that are proven inevitable. and dont they make you miss the person even more? im getting mushy here, so i guess ill end it na..note lang ha: hindi ako ganito kaseryoso lage. madalang pa sa panganganak ng elepante ako maging ganito hehe.. all i know is, if you're mah friend, you're family, plus: i can be as serious or as bangag as you want. winkwink

beLATEd

to all those bitches and bastards i didnt get to greet here on their birthday, im greeting you now!

:nek nek feb3

:mo feb5

:powee feb23

:thea feb26

:anne march1

...un lamang...pasensya na

aww...everything

...find me here

speak to me

i want to feel you

i need to hear you

you are the light

that is leading me

to the place where

i find peace again

you are the strength

that keeps me walking

you are the hope

that keeps me trusting

you are the life to my soul

you are my purpose

you are everything

...and how can i

stand here with you

and not be moved by you

would you tell me

how could it be

any better than this

...you calm the storms

you give me rest

you hold me in your hands

you won't let me fall

you still my heart

and you take my breath away

would you take me in

would you take me deeper now

...'cause you're all i want

you are all i need

you are everything

everything


best from lifehouse i heard yet....shet, geleng.

hear hear

JOEY's BURTDAY TOMORROW KAYA GREET NA KTA NGAUN(wird ano)

Happee birtday sa iyo!!!

hihi
kamusta cebu?
c mine??

ge, ngat na lang jan...

another random thought

mood:

MUSHY

wow
this thing was written by avril lavigne for kelly clarkson...
real good lyrics...


Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray
I could break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jetplane
Far away
And break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging with revolving doors
Maybe I don’t know where they’ll take me
Gotta keep movin on movin on
Fly away
Break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
Though it’s not easy to tell you goodbye
Take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and

break away

Breakaway
Break away


SWELL!

since i was in the mood, i looked out for some more songs i liked and some o them lyrics turned out quiten mushy...here're what i found:

BAMBOO's LIGHT YEARS
last part:

A lot of people that we know
They talk about us
They say we've lost it
They're too far away from Venus, I say

If you think I've crossed the line
I'll see you somewhere out there

'Cause light years from now
They'll find it somehow
'Cause it's beautiful out there

It's beautiful out there...i sure hope so


BAMBOO's WAR OF HEARTS AND MINDS
paborito ni jay..kno wat? i cant figure out the meaning. but i do know its sad.


BAMBOO's PRIDE AND THE FLAME
not very mushy really..just want to share this part of the song(meh fave part xempre):

Reached out to feel each grain
A lifetime running through his hands
The scorching heat left our heart
The workings of a proud brown man
But nowhere could you see
Dark eyes look away
The pride and the flame

Reached out to feel the warmth
Time running through his hands
The scorching heat gave life
The heart of the proud brown man
And he says to his child
Who still couldn't stand

Someday


EVERCLEAR's WONDERFUL
i love this song! and when i found out how sad the lyrics was...i loved it more.


HANSON's UNDERNEATH
well....
sittin all alone in this place
even though we're her face to face
there is nothin gone
but there's somethin wrong
....o dba mushy..

random thoughts

mood:

BORED

meh tanong lang ako: anu na nga ba sa english ang piyok??
....

que si joda. im so bored. walang magawa sa bahay. walang tv, walang libro, walang pc. wala lahat!

QUESIJODAPAJEROCONO

JULY 16, EVREYONE, JULY 16!!!!!!!

yey!!

hp 6 is coming out the

16th of july

this year, as was the headline on miss rowling's site!
a big yey alas hihi..

listen y'all who have unwittingly missed my bithday last time

:
dont worry 'cause i would happily accept a copy of

Harry Potter and the Half-blood Prince

..anetym...and then we can be chummies agen bwahahahaha!!!

extra:::

bob

un smallville ha!!!

kevs

un charmed ko!!!!!!!

jay

sori d ako nkapunta, sori n rin keh bobbie na mas galit p dun sa nagbirthday.......!!!!wehe

ciao, pipol

hear hear

HAPPY BURTHDAY JACQY!!!

ganyan tlga...sad pag birthday heheh...matanda k na!

un debede ko ah!!!

ingat!wehe
LOL

hear hear

happy new year sa ating lahat!

i miss my friends hehehehehehe

when nobody hears you scream, i'll scream with, you'll be safe here

moood:

SWINGS

i think i just fell in love with this song!

yeah

yeah

yeah

yeahhhhhhhhhhh

hear hear

HAPPY BURTDAY LUIS!!
and MARIE and DANNY BOY!!!

LIBRE!

the 5-m tall window

QUESTION:
a ball, dropped from rest, passes a 5-m tall window in 0.5 s. what is the height where the ball was dropped??

oh.
right.

physics.

you'd think it was an easy enough question, but no. @%#*&$!!!
i might go to jail if id say what i want to really say now -- so im not telling. but i do know(and can say here) that my highschool physics teach totally wouldnt approve of """different interpretations of the problem""" whatsoever. duh. of course. its PHYSICS not PHILOSOPHY, dude.
and then theres the sentence construction issue. our comm profs would be utterly revolted if they heard her, im just sure. and whats with her talking about common sense??? id rather have none if it was only to be bent and broken by the likes of her. and for clarification: THERE IS SUCH A THING AS A 5-M TALL WINDOW.
thats it. im going to jail.

im back.. and i dont know why

after, what, a full month of playing dead, im here again.. alas. ive nothing much to say right now, just that.. ive missed posting here.. yeah, so much. kahit tinatamad ako madalas.. ill try to continue this thing... well really, who cares?

random thoughts

mood:

lonely

what i dont understand is why im feelin so bad now when i know it was idea i could have just denied the truth and lied now why am i the only one standing stranded on the same ground


alas...

hear hear

SALAMAT KEH THEA! Ö

burtday po ni arlene ngaun kaya:

happy burtday!

libre!

at sa lahat ng meh burtday, Maligayang Bati!!!

duh-uh
Ö

it's decided: size DOES matter

i saw feng shui the other week(really, who cares?) and i'd say it was good, considering all the other movies my friends say are really good but turn out not so. i guess i just expect em to be beyond expectations, i mean who wouldn't?
take stepford wives as an example. nicole kidman was great, yes, but i think most of you will agree that the ending was LOUSY. it definitely was lacking some butt-kicking action.

enway, nagandahan talaga cguro kami sa feng shui so meh aunt bought a copy(pirated malamang! and you wouldn't believe what was on the cover -- puro photos ni kris aquino smiling & advertising leaonardo bags! there wasn't even a story preview, chrissake).
when we watched it na at home, i dunno, it seemed like it didn't bring out the desired effect, that same kind of spook i and the screaming-as-if-they're-being-murdered people in the cinema felt was missing. you'd normally think it was because of the way the cd jumped time and again (and again and again...) but then you'll also realize that the big screen does things to you that your idiot box(hey why's it called an idiot box? it's one of the brightest inventions i ever saw!) just can't. especially if it's one hell of a horror movie.

hear hear

koya:
download mukung ambaski nanu da reng

lifehouse
switchfoot
dashboard

saka Balsong && Liwanag sa Dilim

ok!
salamat Ö

hudas

i dunno..
i just feel like posting this song. basahin nyo!


Ba’t sila’y nag-iinumang masaya
Bakit sa lupa magulo
Ba’t sila’y nagtatawanang malakas
Tinatawanan lang tayo

Di kayat isang tropa lang sila
Ang Demonyo, si San Pedro at ang Diyos

Tinatawanan lang ni Hudas
Ako’t ikaw
Tayong lahat

Balita ko’y nag-away sa inyo
Dahil ba sa penoy at balot?
Nag-debate, nag-talo kung sinong tama’t totoo
Pinag-awayan si Jawo

Sana ay mamulat ang matang bulag
Na i-isa lang naman ang Diyos

Tinatawanan lang ni Hudas
Ako’t ikaw
Tayong lahat

Sana ay mamulat ang matang bulag
Na i-isa lang naman ang Diyos

Tinatawanan lang ni Hudas
Tinatawanan lang ni Hudas
Si Satanas
At ating Diyos Ama